There have been many moments in my life where something in me knew, before I could explain it.
Not loudly. Not in a way that made sense.
Just a quiet recognition.
A pull. A feeling. A sense that something was right, or not right, without any clear reason why.
And for a long time, I did not trust it.
I would feel something, and then immediately try to think my way around it.
Question it.
Wait for more clarity.
Look for something outside of me to confirm what I already sensed.
There was a time in my life where everything was falling apart at once.
An emotionally abusive relationship was ending.
My home was lost.
My job disappeared.
And in the middle of that, I heard something.
Not in a way I could explain, but clearly enough that it stayed with me.
“There is more to this life.”
I did not know what that meant.
I did not know how to follow it.
I was not looking to become anything spiritual.
I was looking for answers.
Who am I?
What is my purpose?
Will things stabilize?
And still, something in me kept moving.
A shamanic practitioner crossed my path.
I booked a session without really knowing why.
She spoke about things I did not understand.
Did work I could not explain.
And yet, I stayed.
Not because it made sense.
But because something in me recognized it.
That is what I have come to understand about this kind of knowing.
It does not always arrive with clarity.
It does not always fit into what we already understand.
Sometimes it comes in the middle of uncertainty.
Sometimes it asks you to take a step before you feel ready.
And the truth is, I did not always trust it.
There were moments I questioned everything.
Moments I wanted something more solid, more certain.
But over time, I started to see the difference.
It was not that I did not know.
It was that I had not yet learned how to trust what I was sensing.
That space between knowing and trusting.
That is where so many of us are.
Not lost.
Just learning how to listen in a different way.
This is something I see often when I sit with people.
Not that they do not know.
But that they have not yet learned how to trust what is already there.
And that changes everything.
If you have felt that quiet pull too, even if you cannot explain it, you are not imagining it.
This is the space I meet people in through my work, when something is shifting and asking to be understood more deeply.
With love and blessings,
Susan