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Abandonment

As I uncovered more and more of all the crap that I had layered upon my soul, I met the feeling of abandonment. Which, for me, by the way, sucked. With it I felt an array of emotions - anger, hate, fear which led to gratitude and love.

As I looked back I could see why I felt this way and who held up my story for me. The souls who had agreed to help me with this experience in different ways and I thanked each one on a soul level. There was no blame but appreciation for they truly aided me in getting to where I am in this moment.

It's interesting because I never addressed this before, not even when it came up. I simply dismissed it because at that time I wasn't seeing my bigger picture in this way. However, as I have expanded and let go of what doesn't serve me and this experience I have chosen, it became more apparent. As I stand here in all I Am, I have taken back my power and I come from a different space. One of courage, one of strength, one of understanding, clarity, worth, gratitude and love.

These words on a search from Google touched me deeply and perhaps will help you in what you are experiencing.

"Inner emptiness comes from a lack of connection with your spiritual source of love — from not opening to the love-that-is-Source and bringing that love to yourself through true thought and loving action in your own behalf."