What Else Is There?
I want to be honest with you: I'm not finished. Not arrived, not complete, probably not even close.
So often teachers in spiritual community offer themselves as if they know it all, as if they've reached some end result. I don't believe there is an end result. Every time I learn something, I discover there's more to understand. That's not a failure of the learning. That's the nature of it.
When my own opening began, I wasn't looking for a path. I was asking a much smaller question — who's going to help me? — and that question turned around and steered me into the discovery of myself. My gifts. The ways I show up in the world — physically, mentally, emotionally, energetically — and how those could actually support someone else. So I learned Reiki and thought, now I can help people. I learned to channel and thought, now I can channel for everyone. And all the while, I was still learning.
Then I stepped onto the Andean path. I've worked with four or five teachers of that tradition, because it isn't a one-size understanding. In Peru, different regions carry different teachings, different ways of doing things. You see it in something as simple as the mesa — the cloth bundle a paqo carries. One lineage folds it this way, another folds it that way. The khuyas, the stones inside, hold different meanings depending on who taught you. All these variances. Eventually I landed with the lineage that resonated deepest — the one that felt most heart-centered, that wasn't glossing over anything or folding other cultures' frameworks into the tradition.
And still: I'm learning. It's all a developing relationship. It starts with ourselves, then ourselves with another, ourselves with the plants, with energy, with what speaks through us. Layer upon layer.
For a long time, that was hard for me to say out loud. Spirit often teaches me while I'm traveling for someone else — I learn alongside the person I'm serving. On this path, there is no stopping place. I tend not to stay satisfied, because every answer opens more questions. Reiki was true, as far as it went. I understood energy in that context. But somewhere in me knew there was more — I just didn't yet know how to ask about it. So I kept following the one sentence an angel spoke to me at the very beginning of my deep diving:
There is more to this life.
That has been my theme ever since, whether I chose it or not, whether I'm conscious of it in the moment or not. I keep diving, questioning, gathering teachings from different parts of the world and different teachers, filtering them through my own knowing to feel what resonates. And beneath all the different languages, the same themes keep appearing.
So if you find yourself dissatisfied at times, I offer you the question that has carried me: what else is there?
Maybe it starts with love, or money, or this job. Maybe those are the doorways. But the question goes far deeper than that. It goes toward the understanding of yourself — the brilliant, beautiful, amazing soul that you are. There is so much depth to you. I'm shown it. I'm shown the limitations too, and I'm shown how something can be presented to you in exactly the way you're able to receive it. Spirit is amazing with that. They talk with a person right where they are. It's as if you're sitting at a table, and they come and sit down beside you, and they put an arm around you: we understand. We're here to help. And then they help you rise from that table and walk forward.
We think — or we're taught — that we go from zero to a hundred. It doesn't work that way. There are layers. There are steps. You have to bring the ingredients together before there's a meal. We forget about the in-between spaces, and the in-between spaces are where the living happens.
So follow the what else is there. Ask it in curiosity, in wonderment — maybe even childlike. Children are asking that question all the time, not consciously, but with their whole bodies: moving from one toy to the next, putting one thing in the mouth and then another. They discover everything through experience. They live the question.
Somewhere along the way we stop doing that. We can discover things all day long in our minds — turn them over, understand them, know them to be true — but until we actually live them, they just sit there. Sometimes they even become a kind of torture: we know what we should be doing, and we're not, and the disconnect lives in those spaces in between.
The question isn't meant to be thought. It's meant to be walked.
With love and blessings,
Susan
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