This channel had a vision of how a parent should be, but when one expects, one does not take into account the choices of others involved. They too have choices, lessons to learn. Despite this channel wanting a parent who loved her dearly and showed that with affection, with connecting, talking, saying I love you with meaning, she did not take into account the lesson of the parent. Perhaps that parent had to learn how to parent or what it was like to be absent. How does the channel move past this hurt? She finds that hurt, angry child and she loves it. If you see, the love in this channels mind was missing. Although it really wasn't, it was only being shown in another way but this channel did not see it because she limited her view to her expectation. Do you understand this?